There is a good, righteous fear to behold and there is a dangerous, unrighteous fear we must deny. We are able to discern the difference by learning the Word of God, listening to the Spirit (including through your pastor), and prayer.
Accept who you are. God makes no mistakes. Depend wholly on the grace of God to sustain you, even if you’re crawling towards the finish line! (2Ti 4:7; 1Co 15:10)