If you've repented towards God and placed your trust in the Lord Jesus, then you will have an affection for Him, and you can rest assured He called you and elected you. You belong to Him! Lk 18:13-14, Jn 1:12-13,3:1-18, Ac 16:31,20:21, Ro 10:9-11
Accept who you are. God makes no mistakes. Depend wholly on the grace of God to sustain you, even if you’re crawling towards the finish line! (2Ti 4:7)